New years and resolutions!!!!

     Well I made it to 2016....which is truly a miracle.  I thought in April when I found out about Brigham I would not be able to make it to the end of the pregnancy let alone the end of the year.  This year has pushed me to the max spiritually, emotionally, and even physically.  But that said, I wouldn't trade anything in for a million dollars.  My sweet Brigham came to me and he came for a reason.  Yes it is true he didn't need to live in this world, because he was perfect... but it is more than that.  He taught me who I am and what potential God sees in me.  I have learned more about God's love for me than anything else.
     Resolutions are a funny thing...we think that it is a new year so we need to do resolutions, but in fact I want to continually do resolutions.  But I like the time to reflect on what I need to improve on.  This year I want to be more positive and rely on the Lord and his plan for me.  I want to get pregnant this year, but I am scared of pretty much everything.  This song hit hard to me..

Be still my soul, the Lord is on thy side
with patience bear, thy cross of grief or pain
Leave to thy God to order and Provide
In every change he faithful will remain

Be still my soul, thy best thy heavenly friend
through thorny ways, leads to a joyful end.

Be still my soul, Thy God doth undertake
to guide the future as he has the past
thy hope thy confidence, let nothing shake
all now mysterious shall be bright at last
Be still my soul, the waves and winds still know
his voice who ruled them while he dwelt below
Be still my soul......be still my soul.....be still my soul....
Be still my soul, the hour is hastening on, when we shall be forever with the lord
when disappointment, grief and fear are gone
sorrow forgot, loves purest joys restored
Be still my soul, when change and tears are past
All safe and blessed we shall meet at Last...

This is beautiful and explains my heart perfectly.  I will be at peace and trust in the Lord and I know through my faithfulness all things will be made right and it will eventually work out.

here is to a year filled with Love, Learning, and Faith!!