still crying for our Brigham....

     When I was putting Olivia to bed tonight she started crying "Brigham....Brigham...." She misses him so much.  It is so crazy she can love him so much and have such an attachment to him when we only had him here on earth for such a short time.  I know that when I was pregnant though she was so involved and LOVED to feel him kick and talk to him.  I talked her about where Brigham is and how he is our angel here.  She asked, if the day we would be with and see Brigham again was soon (ressurection), if it was after Christmas.  I told her it is not for a long time, not until she probably has kids of her own. She was very dissapointed with that answer.  I feel so bad that she is dealing and feeling the same feelings as Adam and I.  I just held her close and let her cry...
     After she cried for a little bit, I went on to tell her that Heavenly Father has a plan for each one of us.  He watches over us and we go through things that we are supposed to go through.  I explained Brigham didn't need to be here long and Heavenly Father needed him up in Heaven.  She answered with, "Why didn't Heavenly Father make a plan to have Brigham here with us?"  I was taken back by that question, but just explained his love for us and that it will all work out in the end.
     It will work out in the end, Right?  I asked Olivia what faith means during scripture study and she responded with, "faith means to don't ever give up!" She is one smart cookie.....I am not giving up and will never give up.  I know it will work out in the end and that no matter what... God loves me and he will make everything right on the other side.  Even though I miss Brigham more than words can express I know He is doing the Lords work on the other side.  I feel him close wherever I go and I know Brigham will and is helping us.  No heartache goes unnoticed, no tear goes uncompensated.  I am striving to keep the faith and do all that I can to be close to our Heavenly Father and I know in return God will bless me and our sweet family.  God is good and we will be okay, okay doesn't mean not hurting or heartache it just means we will get through it.  I will always hurt for my sweet Brigham, I will always have a hole there, but with God's help I will get through it and every other trial I face.